Nic Of Light – When we understand those who live conflict that is built into them ; we learn togother to create a world of peace; by undertsdanding each other and bothering to have a closer look at each other. Understanding sexuaility and sexual identity groups in the key to understanding why we have global conflict; that is where the problem exists on a Primal level of’ Expansion and settlment’.
‘Universal Love yes it still exisits. Buddhism . Holisitc interviews. Modern Living and Entertainment. Sexuality and Life and. Music and Performance, Healingism ;( using the energy we have that we also share) . Mens Style Art and Fashion‘.
Reaching out from your me me me mode we can all do it even if only sometimes.
My message to new ageists, middle Class-ists; please put down that Ikea rug, yes it goes with the curtains; and help others in life where you can? . Buddists stop saying it’s all about you. “It is not”, it is about all of us. Get out of that Yoga room now and then and reach out to others ; it is not just about you!. We share this world togther. This goes for all sysytems. We are born into a mix of circumstances and people; it is all connected ‘togther’ as a unit of experience.
Some times I phone LBC radio to share my feelings under another name. I must have been on about Seven times in 7 years. I am amazed how few healers, Meditators, Buddhists, Sufi’s New ageists, People of love ring in to offer some new ideas. I see the Old systems clashing as usual when someone into Love rings in once a year or so; The affect is powerful and amazing everyone is still for a second I can really feel it.
So I wrote my message and song I Love You All.
I came from Pop music got into Film Music then Holistic Pop, opera and performed in gatherings and parties still do. I was strange for me to come from the 80s where music was so varied in everyway to end up in 2017 where music is very narrow. I stick to my theme that I like open harted and unique music which I totally believe in. Being Lgbt as a adult man has really led to me to realise that music has changed and it seems much more seperated other than Sam Smith. This seems to be as a result of the image of Hip Hop and how that shapes Male artits to be over Straight. But actually there are many artists coming up with really just go for who they are now. I feel honoured to be my age whilst still being very open minded musically and I am going for who I am more and more. I am finding this Journey exciting.
This track brings togther my l(g)bt essence with universal power of Love. It is about being Human.
I grew Up in care and Love was not often around. I realised that love was so important to me. I could not survive without it. I have had a few amazing relationships which saved my life because I was fading and one in particuar with a healer I call him beautiful coco. I was always around healers, phycics, people tuned into aother worlds. In fact most true musicians do the same because we channell energy from the Universe layers of light unseen wave patterns and put them into physical form known as music or art sound expression can even be sexual and often is.
The new generation of healers accept sexuality as it is and always was varied! Going back way before the ancient period of Greece Rome etc. This is documented by several historians and Anthopologists.
I use my Male sexual energy which there is a lot of to create and perform. That is why I am Nic of Light. I take the Big Gay camp energy which is really powerful creative energy which Gay men in particual have and I mix it with Cross over Themes which I do natrually. Some musically styles hit people on many levels. I am recording new songs now and trying to deepen my songs yet I cannot get away from Commerical themes because they are part of me.
I love you all can be seen as ‘Ethal Merman’ Gay Diva style ‘I Love You All’; with rounded lips. Or Simply and beaufully a Universal message to all. I have even had people say does it mean ‘ I have had you all’ I think um. LOL. One thing is for sure when I sing it live, peoples souls open up and eyes shine bright and it is an honour to see that.
Being mixed Jewish African with a hint of Inidan has given me it seems many ideas gifts. One theme running through many performers is the larger than life thing. I get that from my Mother whilst my father played as a musican with bands in the 70s Man fred Man was one. In this lifetime I feel very Buddist.
Shalom and Hello to all. Photo kew Gardens 2016.
I am a Mix of Love, Light, Dramactic music that is also Fun. Belief in a Loving world where the territorialists find better ways to deal with paranoia. We have seen so much conflict and now it is time for peace.
The Global conflict energy can be channelled into Community work the Gym and endless projects that could really do with that . One of my life studies is to try to resolve why we have global conflict…. I Love you all is a peace song.
So far I have discovered that by seperating out the sexual groups gives you a very clear picture of what is happening in this regard; becasue it gives a tribal overview which modern living masks from us. All of this exisits on a primal level that is why it is tricky to identify. When you begin you soon get a better understanding which is clear and simple.
What History clearly shows us.
I see that over the centries aspects of the Male community encouarged by others have have taken hold of religion claiming various statements for the sole purpose of Expansion and settlement. This has lead to severe conflicts going back some tewo thousand years as the West grew it was powered by this hidden primal beleif. The old religions gave implied and direct permission for this to occure and various lies about lgbt commnity were used to justify the aims ( expansion and settlement); that is the answer .
Whist every other group were being removed from the social environment this expanded the Hetrosexual mcommunity which ensured expansion into other lands and within its own community and land. Eventually the lands taken over spread the same message about lifestyle which was not advisable to go against. This in itself ensured that everyone had a family and a family basically meant strong men towards the expansion movement which directly led to the cities and the number of people in those cities which we see today.
That led to mass resourses, Travel, expanson, but It did not stop Pollution planet on verge of strain. In Nature there are built in balnaces that some people would have families and others not. Howevere, the older systesm ( which are trying to have a come back today) only having a family mattered for various reasons some being becasue of early raiding where Women and children were taken as property some people did not make it. But the period I am talking about was some time after that ‘The ancient period and to now’.
When we remove lgbt from the Male community generally we remove ; at the same time ‘the balance that stablises Hetrosexual men’. The Gay and Bisexual, is the Feminine or creative or artistic element of the Male community once that has gone conflict tends to follow almost without fail. So removal causes severe results and destablises the male communities energy because we all exist as friends family or lovers to support each other.
Moreover, look at countries where this is the case; it is text book destablisation men trying to prove they are this or that ; They created all the groups in the first place. Male groups very quickly go out of control alone . Furthermore As a collective; sections of the Male community tend to lean towards expansion and settlement beleiveing this to be their purpose yet it should be done in peace.
In a fluid and mixed social environment this need to dominate and remove !; is balanced by other needs, rights and holistic ideas which ensure peace. What I see is that some men need good contact, leadership and physical purpose or aims; good support being listended to understand. This keeps the waters calm. But alone we see ( a type of battle). Both sexes have their balances of Male and Female within Male and Female.
It seems to me that there is some ancient knowledge on these Human issues which we lost until recently. Looking into history we see Gender fluidity all across the ancient world from Europe with the Sexual shamans to Indian Asia, Africa, North Africa, and Europe.
It’s about working togther accepting all our unique differences and working togther. We are made to balance each other and I am very clear about this now.
One system takes over another and this goes back before the acicent period to Babylonian wars and before. What happened? Something must have occured at some point about 5000 years ago which created a revenge cycle and with expansion came pressure to survive so raiding occured as theft. One Village to the next that is how modern conflIct evolved. people fought for land in anicent Europe there was no sence of just asking and sharing; this would be becasue Women were seen as property and so their voice was not generally part of the Male battle negotiations. I am sure that peace would have dominated if Women and lgbt had been part of the deal. The male battle voice when it came to conflict was the only voice.
I toured for three years when I was about 21. I was in Stanley Kubricks Films ‘ Eyes Wide Shut’ I had a tiny part. I was also in ‘the Bill’ as a Police sergeants lover . I am currently a part tiime Law student LLB into Holistic Law ( taking everything into account). I have taken part in ‘Who am I’ weekend retreat. I have studied assessertiveness and Nlp and regualry read self development books ‘You can Heal you life’ Lousie Hay is one I always go back to.
The Beautiful pattern of life all over the world.
To share learn grown love
I co hosted and sang at an event I called ‘Holisitc London’
Myself and Purple Mama have spent the last 4 years singing in community events in churches for community centres and its been important work and intergration both ways.
I started Holistic London with Purple Ma Ma who I met at Inspiral lounge in Camden a holistic foodery with open mic. We put on a Theatrcical Holisitic inspirational events with a open where anyone could add something positive. We had several performers who joined us. We performed in the Park in Clapham common and in Cafes, and Resturants. We had all ages performing it was very special to be part of that and to have created that space for community expression. I was my way to intergrate and be part of life outside the LGBTQ scene and just be a lgbt normal person for a while anyway. The thongs stayed at home and the Voice came flying out. My voice even suprised me many times as it grew I was pleased and amazed.
I like to think that my songs are about understanding this and adding a new way to think. being mixed race seems to give me a edge on orginality and a way to penetrate into reality and look closely at reality. My Brother and sister also have this. I beleive that to keep evolving we must mix and in fact that our genes expect this and need this to keep growing learning and evolving. But people fear this thinking that we must all stay the same as we were thousands of years ago. We do not need this at all and we are free to mix and Love where there is love. I believe that is the whole point of migration.
As a singer I Generally perform at Inspirational gatherings or Parties with friends
‘I love you all’ I wrote this track with a brillaint creative Gay Male producer I felt this was right becasue the healing element, the fantastic belief in anything, The big camp sexual energy which gay men have allowed this track to come through. the creative , element was there. He played a guitar riff and I just started to sing.
I wrote this song when 9/11 was actually occuring. I sat with the Producer of the music side watched the news was really affected. I wanted to to offer my way of saying sorry for this, sorry for the evil side of the world and offer some hope in my own way
I felt there was a presence that said ‘I love you all’ but was being ignored. The song comes from a healing Buddhist, New age loving space and is directed at the inner purity which we all love; that is loving and kind not just ( competitive ) a word used way to much today.
It’s about the innocence in us all, that can remember to smile and see love in others /self and see what is beautiful in others and self. The song is about appreciation. At the same time the song is over the Top and about fun and good times.
I wanted to find somewhere to sing ‘I Love u all’ I knew that some commerical fans would mock this so I found the Holisitic venue in Camden ‘ The Inspiral Lounge’ The venue had a Glastonbury festival connection you could tell. It had the healing fields vibe I liked that. They had a open mic on Sundays so I decided to go on my own. I met some amazing people their into healing, Love and Light and I needed this. I began to sing my three songs, I love you all, Be Bright and LGBT ballad called Night after Night. I felt my confidence really grown there. Until a guy turned up who talked over everyones performances I began to get tierd of him I felt challened. He kept saying Oh you are very niche; I said no actually I am very commerical with a Global message. i knew I would be challenged had to get on with it. Most other people danced when I sang and enjoyed the energy. My kid self wanted to put my boot in his face coming from a street back ground one can easily switch from elegance to Male testosterone. I held back thank gold.
I studied singing At Morley College, City Lit and with’ Ian Shaw‘ the Jazz singer. I began with theattrical stage jazz and my voice grew into Opera over time. My voice tends to have its own way of doing things and when it changed I change my whole style to fit with it; even the songs I sing. I am noticed that I was becoming more operatic so I needed to find the right trainers to help me. I worked and praticed hard my voice did not easily come out so I had to really understand it. I realised that a part if me due to Homophbia in the 80s and 90s jhad trapped me within myself. It took some abuses of the voice to really get some bigger sounds out before I learnt to stablise it. A part of me wanted to run a way from it all it was so hard and just have sex and go to clubs but I could not leave my dreams behind. So the other behind had to be left behind; all those staunning guys were for someone else I had my own Tasks to do which meant everything to me. When I did meet the very good looking types it was always all about them and their body and I needed to spend time on my music. I felt tormented by life a nice bum or my music. I choose my music
I wanted to understand Peace Care and Love everywhere even in Business.
My songs are about Universal ideas. And the idea that we can live in peace and becomeleader in the universe as harmonized beings. I believe that is our true mission as a race. Moreover, if we destroy the planet we destroy all the good work and ourselves. Beings of war is the old Human race and this is just an old pattern that has not been broken yet. Repeat Repeat Repeat; Change.
I studied Opera singing for many years it began with Pop and Jazz and over time it changed to Opera. My Vocal coach said to me I cannot teach you anymore you need an Opera teacher. I was shocked and hurt. But later I knew what he meant. I studies mujsic at Goldsmiths, City lit, and had private training with Ian Shaw and know Jazz singer.
This track I wrote based on elegant 1920s Vocal style . Also the track is a fun message about health. Hebral tea is better than Cafine Plaine and simple. I love the fun of this track of. The Trumper was played by Mike D it was not a sample. I insist on actual instuments in my tracks to balance the computer stuff.
My track Just be Bright Let the Sunshine in. Inspired by Miami sexyness Bright Sun Openess and Inspiration to get off your ass and so your creative stuff and give Eastenders, Porn whatever a break.
Video ajust above is called‘ Bee Bright Let the Sunshine in’. It is about really being yourself and going for your dreams and telling yourself you can. Set to a theatrical Latin style sexy track the sun really shines in the track with this style and that is the point.
The producer and I worked hard on this track we realised that is was moving our way out of bedroom House dance music and the whole thing was unmanagebale at one stage. It was as if the Hot energy was too much to handel. Wer finally finisshed it. I would still like to do some new versions.
In the 90s I formed a act called ‘Pharoah‘. I was a club Pharaoh I was so into it I went to Egypt to learn more about 1994. The songs were actually very deep I was releasing my feelings from my past and exploring cultural idenity at the same time. I was into Lou reed, Grace jones, films and Sci Fi. The voice was semi Operatic with middle eastern classical romantic edge. The songs were theatrical but it was equally about vintage style ans sexuality drama expression. I almost got a record deal but went on late from nerves which tends to slow everything down. I worked with brilliant ( straight) producer called Van from passion records a small label in brixton. It was tricky for me because I dressed liked this without the hat all the time. So me and Brixton clashed but justa about got on.
I was part New Age figure, Part Fashion Pop Art, part Theatre and Opera, Part Lgbt buttt I easily crossed markets from Staright to Gay from Alernative to Commerical. from art to concerts’ it’s all an attiude when you perform’.
Everyweekend I used to go to the Brillaint Goth night called ‘Fulltilt’ in Camden then on the Sat Tat Tea I would go to’ Love Muscle’ at the fridge in Brixton. A gay night where the guys has erections and a drag queen played with thier cks live on stage on stage one of the most progressive gay nights in the world. Straight couple used to visit a lot because st8 guys got male empowerment from this and the Gay Bi guys got turned on me included.
Pharaoh live. Promotion is needed and boring but Live is pure energy. I used to also perform with Ms Marie ( not in this picture) we both gave out flyers On Portobello Road.
Mount Sinani in Eygpt about (1995). The Mountain Mosses threw the tablets from; it’s miles down.
I felt strangely part of history as if going back in time. Maybe I felt safer living a fantasy or it was a past life thing; either way it was creative I learnt a lot about the history of that time.
My past experience in music and performance
In the 80s I toured wita Pop group had a no 2 in the Uk , travelled for three years. Before that I travelled as a child with my father who was a session musican. When I was younger I knew amazing things were possible with the mind and outer self where they can become a reality. The former pop group I was in showed me that anything is possible with hard work determination and pratice is the key to anything I think.
About 2001 My projects changed; usually when my voice changes which it tends to completely change style.
I changed my name to ‘Poppy‘ Then later ‘Nic Poppy !
I left the drama and moody songs of The Pharaoh behind and began to get into Vintage Pop Jazz . I attended an open mic on Portobello rd called ‘Pull my daisy‘ Run by ‘Mic P‘ singer and host who is now a very established Character. It was really intimate and real I loved it. As Mic built up his artist base we all went on to perform together in Private Club where Pop stars went to classy Bars it was fun. See the flyer above. It was very classy cool and deep. After about 5 years I wanted to perform opera and ‘I love you all‘ in community events so I went off to do that.
I wtote Herbal Bru. Everyday and did a remake of Fever.
People that inspire me and Bums that gives energy
The Gay eroctic scene is part of my life It Gay guys are constantly giving each other sexual energy even iof we walk past each other and that is meant to be. I embrace this. I myself was an eroctic model for a while I loved the freedom of it.
I love this Gay eroctic artist Francois Saggat an icon from the Gay french scene. Look but dont touch. Might sound arrogant but not a lot of things of the world inspire me becasue I have my own ideas that I connect me,
A lot of healers and new age people and buddists etc are still trapped in old religious thought which holds them back as people. Generally people in the 40s to 5os can be very closed minded as per their generation. Well this vide below is for you.
Gay guys espeically as a collective ;offer peace, vibrant positive energy they use their sexual and sexually frustrated energy in a creative way. Men need to release sexuality build ups via sex or masturbation ; I see the difference is that some straight men seem to become very aggressive needing somehow to release this stress. I think because society tells Straight men that only women can help with this. The man who might wan to release it with his mates because frustrated . I have spoken with some Women about this; I get the impression many women are not that interested in that sort of quick release sex that many men need due to sexual build up of energy, chemicals, stress etc.
Ok Gay guys some drink, fight get jealous and have is reality. I am talking about collective idenity generally not individually idenity; which we have focused too much on in the modern world. we do not live on our own , that is a lie, there is a planet of billions of people. When we go out we share the air with other people if someone has cold and you breath in that air facing that person you may get that cold. Everything we do is connected to others. We are told we are individual which is only partly true. Yet we share our body with thousands of Tiny life forms called Microbes or bacteria. Everything is connected. When we breath air we inhale atoms and molecules ; those atoms connect to other atoms reaching our light years and they are all connected from the point of your mouth in every direction.
Brian is amazing a mouth watering ass and body all these things are part of life but most spiritual people hide it; not me I celebrate life.
2. Louis hay You can heal your Life
3. Ancient India, confirmed by an Indian buddist friend of mine.
Amazing song very very deep
Love this new gender fluid dance style stunning. Also very gay and very free a joy to watch and umm sexy
Nice to see Girls and guys and lgnt in this age mixing dancing as they are love it!
Books and reading
- Check out my songs, interviews, and writing of course. See Nic of Light Youtube
- Loiuse Hay You can heal your life
- Try some romanic lgbt films like Just a question of Love or Huge Grant in Maurice
- 4. Buddism Sgi Uk or Usa
- Beleive in your purpose and let yourself meet who you need to me flow with this.